why am i alive??!!

I spent a lot of time,
Trying to figure out why I’m alive,
Spent a lot of hours and minutes trying to know what happened to life,
Why is it so dark?
With no shining spark,
And why did happiness just go without leaving a mark,
Even when I find a little hope,
That tries to pull me by a rope,
Life acts as a huge knife that cuts down the rope,
And now friends are getting out of my way,
All the colours are fading away,
And I don’t know what to do or even what to say,
Now that everything is gone,
I’m feeling so alone,
Sitting in the cold just waiting for the long-awaited dawn,
Hoping I could see the sun again,
But all I can see is rain,
And I know everything will disappear and grief will just remain....
i know it's a sad one but i hope u like it